Father’s Day Greetings From Planet Earth

17 06 2007

Hi Pa, 

It’s Sunday morning and I’m here at the cemetery sitting right at your tomb.    I’m  downing the last bottle of cold Red Horse beer straight into my veins.  Too bad, you can’t have some. How long have you been down there?  Ten years?  Man, you must be a fertilizer now.  I’m lost in time and for me it’s like only yesterday.  I am used to having you around and I haven’t moved on since.  But now,  I am visiting you for the last time, talk of the things we haven’t said and talk about all the promises unspoken.  I think it’s time for me to move on. 

Remember the time I was a young kid and you used to carry me at your back on our way home after watching movies with Mommy?  That’s the best childhood memory stuck in my mind.  The memory lives in here [pointing at my chest].  And I couldn’t help bragging to my siblings that I was your favorite though it’s supposed to be our secret.  And remember the time you were accompanying me to the bus to school?  You were gripping me hard like I wouldn’t return home. I had to tell you that you were crushing my hands.  Now I’m missing the man with those rough hands and gentle eyes. 

I was in third year high school when we had the news from home.  When I came home, Mommy was already crying.  You were battling against your heart problem and your last bout to life was painful to recall.  Mommy said you were calling my name before you let go your last gasp of breath.  You died wanting to see me.  I was late.  I’m sorry. 

If only I know what I had known now, I would have been more grateful to you.  I would have gone home when you were sick.  I would have not ignored the wisdom of your thoughts.  I would have responded yes when you asked me to take care of my younger siblings when you get older.  I would have loved you more.  I would have asked less. 

There are still many things left unsaid.  I want to tell you that I am making good money now as a software engineer in a big, big company.  I am also sending bunso Angelie to college.  She wants to be a nurse.  On Saturdays, I teach.  I teach my students about computer, life-in-general-like-the-ones-you’ve-taught-me, and some corny jokes.  Computer by the way is that tv-shaped monitor with a typewriter connected to it.  And no, I’m not a secretary.    

Soon, I would have a family of my own and I would raise my children the way you did.  I would carry my kids at my back when we go home after watching movies.  I would walk them to the beach and watch the sun bow on our feet.  We would play in the rain and chase the pot at the end of the rainbow.  We would gaze the stars and weave all the dreams.   Pa, you know you’re not the best father in the world, but hell I care.  For all the love, you are missed in this lifetime.  Happy Father’s Day and Happy Birthday! 

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18 06 2007
cat

for sure, your dad is so proud of you badoodles.

18 06 2007
badoodles

hi cat, dami ko na kasalanan sau. hehe! di ko kasi ma-access blog mo sa multiply naka-filter kasi sa office. nung saturday naman, down ang internet ko. kaya bawi ako next week. and thanks for assuring that he’s proud of me. 🙂

18 06 2007
Vince

natutuwa ako na nalulungkot. U remind me of my father, fertilizer na rin kasi sya sa ngayon… but u got a good father eh? be a good father, too bro…. 🙂

18 06 2007
Cai

senti.. nalungkot naman ako lalo.. pero at least you have memories with him.. i mean, nakasama mo sya for many years..

anyway, thanks a lot sa comment..

one day makikita ko rin ang dad ko, pero sana hindi pa sya fertilizer para naman maging proud pa sya saken, ComSci na UP pa..

18 06 2007
bingskee

it is a mixture of laughter and sadness while me and my kids are reading this. my daughter said you’re funny but at the same time said, nakakatouch ang mga isinulat mo. my son said you write very good. if that’s what’s doodling is all about he he

and hey, wished that your father could have at least learned what a computer is, but as you said he’s a fertilizer now, just like my father. Papa used to bring me to the many places he wants to go to when i was little. those memories are irreplaceable.

ps (pahabol na segundo) – i like how you put these things into words. 🙂

18 06 2007
SexyMom

for all that it’s worth, and how you perceived his physical state to be–at least, as a fertilizer he is saving the earth. imagine, even after death, he still is contributing to the betterment of Mother Earth.

kidding aside, that was an entertaining, yet touching post about your father, bless his soul!

18 06 2007
Chi

the good thing about your relationship with your father is that even after death, happy memories of him as a father still remains with you. at least death didn’t stop you from greeting him happy father’s day. my dad and i are on a warpath right now and this year, we didn’t share any greetings nor happy memories. glad that you’ve shared something worth reading about father’s day.

18 06 2007
BananaMatronix

uy. naiyak ako. matext ko nga tatay ko. huhuhu.

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi brother vince, i’ll try to be good one too. maybe the way ur doing right now, treating the kids like your own. thanks for the site visit.

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi cai, i pray u see ur dad the soonest too. mas maraming prayers, mas maraming powers. ahihi. be a player in the i.t. field soon.. make ur dad proud.

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi bing. wow family bonding time in modern times. ur giving me an idea. thanks to ur son and daughter, pakiramdam ko tuloy tito ako. and thanks for the words, parang blurb ng isang box office hit. 🙂

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi sexy mom, thanks for the visit. yep, it’s pay back time for the guy. he’s gone away, owing more than he could pay. dat’s d payment for all the sutil things he did here in the planet. (he knows m kidding, anyway) 🙂

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi mommy chi, it’s a bumpy road in terms of father-child relations. more on the part of the father because of prob in verbalizing love. but u, u all have the chance to reach out to him.

19 06 2007
badoodles

hi dianne, hahaha! natawa naman ako sau. naimajin ko kasi itsura mong umiiyak. yaan mo na, minsan lang naman ako magsenti in a blue moon. pramis next week, patatawanin kta, pati short and long intestines mo makikiliti. 🙂

19 06 2007
cat

Your Pop sounds like a good man. Some men can’t express their feelings verbally but they show it in other ways like yours did. Belated Happy father’s day to your dad(yep kahit fertilizer na siya) and to the father’s in your life.

apology accepted…kidding, hindi mo kailangan magsorry

19 06 2007
badoodles

haha! thanks cat.

19 06 2007
pepe

ah, thanks for reminding me those kind words tonyo (is that yur real name kase and baduy, hehehehe) and im doing all i can before my old folks will face the final curtain…i guess papa’s are all the same no? my fondest memory of my papa was when he used to carry me too wen i was 10 years old, kase di ako nakakalakad due to my RHD…recalling those days, i cant help but cry 😦

oys, uwi ako sa enrile next month! inuman tayo ha? 🙂 hope you guys are not homophobic hehehe joke lang!

19 06 2007
brVinceFMS

… and by the way, anitokid of blogspot said something about your comment found on my last entry. He said, “btw, did you see the comment posted by badoodles, My Brother? THAT FOR ME IS THE ULTIMATE COMMENT! And I kid you not!”

19 06 2007
badoodles

tonyo’s my board name as disc jockey before of the defunct starfm. i still play songs to a radio station here in manila if i hev free tym 🙂 no probs with me pepe, m ur guy. though hev no plans to go home as yet due to work load here and singapore. but we’ll be home by dec to finally tie the knot with MyBebe. 🙂

19 06 2007
badoodles

brother vince, really? hahahaha! but i was serious. 🙂 your words are ponderful and spiritual. and i kid you not

19 06 2007
Nemcy

*sniff* *sniff*

19 06 2007
badoodles

nemcy, crying lady ka ah. 🙂

20 06 2007
aMgiNe

got teary eyed reading your entry. im sure ur dad is very proud of you now.

thanks for dropping by my blog. care to exchange links?

20 06 2007
badoodles

sure manure, aMgiNe. nothing beats reliving childhood memories like this. m just taking this opportunity [blogging] to show how he’s missed. link you up too. ur blog on my watch list so i know what to do also when i get to have my own baby too. 🙂

21 06 2007
feng

badoodles, your post made me missed my Dad 😦 he’s nearing his death anniversary next week na, so i guess fertilizer na din sya?

i’m sure your Dad’s so proud of you. he’s continuously guiding you wherever he may be, i’m sure of that. 🙂

21 06 2007
badoodles

hi feng, back in mainstream blogging for good? hehe… thanks for the site visit. m not sure if being in emo mode is good for the health. but i promis to be back in my usual wacky wisecracking by my next blog post next week. 🙂

21 06 2007
jeneerichard

badoodles, naiyak ako habang natatawa. para tuloy akong baliw dito. at,naguilty din ako bigla. ninuninuni….

21 06 2007
badoodles

hi jen, ganun? tear jerker ba? sori. promise next week iiyak ka sa katatawa for my next blog post ko.

2 07 2007
Manny

Hi. Very nice story about your memories of your Dad. It’s been six years since my Dad passed away. I might do the same thing and write a letter to him on his next death anniversary or next Father’s Day.

3 07 2007
badoodles

hi manny. my father’s my only excuse to get cheesy. plus the regrets of not being able to do simple things for him like doing his coffee or preparing his slippers.

27 07 2007
nelo

best letter I read for fathers….ang galing mo magsulat pre..hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o maiiyak…

youre a good man pre!

27 07 2007
badoodles

@nelo wag mo namang sabihing magaling akong magsulat pre mamya di lang betlog ko ang malaki. sira lang ang tuktok ko siguro. hahaha! salamat sa pagtambay mo. saka ten chu din sa link. linked u up too.

9 08 2007
chillidobo

badoodles, ngayon ko lang nabasa ito. thru nelo’s recommendation. nakakrelate ako. Wala na rin akong papa (di ako bading). Sayang… ng konti. Bata at immature pa ko nun (gang ngayon) and I could only love him the way I know how. good times. aus to pre

9 08 2007
badoodles

@chillidobo it’s always good to remember the old times. i always strive to be a good son to mommy and good brother to my siblings kasi un ang promise ko kay papa. haha! nahanap mo pa pala to sa baul ko.

10 08 2007
chillidobo

mahilig akong mag-ungkat at maghagilap sa mga baul

10 08 2007
badoodles

ayos tau jan. 😉

18 08 2007
kotsengkuba

man, i’m supposed to be laughing at your posts pero lagi akong napupuwing… ang galing mong magsulat. idol na kita mula ngayon!

19 08 2007
sawn

you always amaze me bro. sana girl ka na lang. nyahahaha! Naalala ko tuloy yung nasulat ko nung college, “letter to nanay” naman yun. hinalungkat ko nga sa baul ng mga past memories ko. di ko na nakita baka napag tripan ng daga. gusto ko sanang basahin yun ulit sa original na draft yellow paper. nakakaginhawang tingnan kase pag nakikita mo yung mga erasures mo, yung mga phrases na pinalitan, at alalahanin yung bakit yun ang pinalit…

nakakamis din kase yung panahong di pa ako namulat sa mundo [wala pang kamunduhan]. di ko malimutan yung entry ko na yun sa skol paper namin kase merong nanay ng may nanay ang pumunta sa skool press opis at hinanap ako. nag iisip ako sa sulok nun ng isusulat para sa susunod na issue, tinuro ako ng kumag naming managing editor nun.

kinabahan tuloy ako, pero hindi masyado dahil wala naman akong naalalang na rape. Nakakatuwa, niyakap ba naman ako tol, natuwa daw siya sa article ko. sana daw naging anak nya ako.

pero di ko na talaga nahanap yung draft ng article ko na yun. ilang taon mula ngayon, yung draft na nakasulat sa yellow pad nun, magkakahalaga na ng thousand dollars sa ebay.

20 08 2007
badoodles

@sawn langya ka pare ko, gusto mo pang pagtripan tumbong ko. ayos kasi ung nakakapagsulat ka na merong nakakarelate sa pinagdaraanan mo. kala ko sinabi nung nanay sau na ligawan mo na ung dalaga nya. hehe biro lang. dont wori parekoy, magkasing kulit tau.

5 09 2007
Rally

na-miss ko tuloy father ko. he died when i was third yr in college. too late…

10 09 2007
shang

were different your a boy and im a girl…kidding…like us ur fader is father to you…but mine…ohhh im that bad… im praying na mamatay na siya (only when his drunk)… i grew up, no fader from my side… kung umuuwe naman para kaming soldiers and He, our general….por me….

11 09 2007
merl gwapa

Wa ako ma say papa, sabi ko sayo nuon na malayo ang marating mo eh, pray ko na miles miles pa ang marating mo he he he

11 09 2007
merl gwapa

Hay naku friend! Laking pasalamat ko kay Lord kasi isa ako sa mga nabibiyayaan ng mabait at da best na pader kahit bitin sa pinansyal ok lang.

11 09 2007
merl gwapa

that’s life

23 09 2007
randomdemeanor

syeyt! Mugto na mata ko dahil sa post mo.

Don’t know why lumuluha pa rin ako kahit tapos na kong magbasa…nasa trabaho pa naman ako ngayon..

Shock tuloy mga ka opis meyts ko dahil bigla akong napaiyak..
‘Nu bayan..cguro di pa nga ako ready na mawala erpats ko…WAAAA…di ko nga kaya ma imagine…Papa’s girl ako eh..(babae ako kahit lalaki ang nasa picture, crush ko kasi ‘yan)..huhuhuhuhuhuhh..badoodles..bakit pa kasi ako nagbasa sa opis..hirap na tumigil sa kaiiyak…may report pa akong kelangan ipass..panu na ngayon to…

‘ey nalink na nga pala kita

23 09 2007
badoodles

@randomdemeanor hehe! kala ko boypren mo. hala, nagui-guilty naman ako. link din kita. 😉

24 09 2007
randomdemeanor

Sana nga borpren ko yang engot (uuyyy) na nasa picture….kaso di ko nga maalala kung saang browser ko jenekwat yan…di pa nga kami nagkakilala eh…di ko din alam kung dedo sya (wag naman sana) or alive….’nu sa tingin mo?

24 09 2007
badoodles

@random demeanor kamuka ng isang bloghopper… hmmm, si maldito yata yan. hehe. di ko maalala. hehe.

24 09 2007
randomdemeanor

waaaaaaaaahhhh….c maldito bah?…sana nga sya yan..wahhahahha..kaso lng hindi eh…friend ko si maldito ..actually ka office mate kami…sya ang nagintroduce sa akin sa mundo ng wordpress…heheheh..wala pa nga ako cguro one month sa wordpress eh…pano kaya i-search ang isang tao sa pamamgitan ng picture noh?..possible kaya un?…hala..obsessed na ba ako…’nu ba etech…

26 09 2007
badoodles

@random demeanor nice idea. face recognition. heckshuli posible yan as long as may database ka ng mga mukha ng tao.

27 09 2007
randomdemeanor

aaahhhh..ok…wala ako database eh..eh..meron pala ..pero sa work..kainis..di ko malaman kung bading ba ito.. o tunay na lalake…tsk tsk…

29 09 2007
Maldito

Aba..pinagchishismisan na pala ako ng baybhe gurl ko kay badoodles?hahahha..nice post dude..andun na din tatay ko sa langet…ksama ni san pedro sa inuman at sabong.Mahilig sa sabong eh..may sabongan company siya nawala lang nung dedo na siya…tsk tsk..were all a bunch of papas kids..hahhaa….ako din fave ni papsi…tay see u soon!!hahaha..

30 09 2007
randomdemeanor

@MALDITO
hahay..kapal leeps tlga tong c Maldito…masumbong nga kita sa MGA baybhe gurls mo dito…weeeeeeeeeehhh

@badoodles
ayan na ah…na change ko na pic…wala na cgurong mapepeke nito…

16 11 2007
Glad Erhardt

ahhh…this is sweet..nakakaiyak naman. thanks for sharing.. ur a great kuya.

22 11 2007
maktub

pakyu badoodles… this post cost me tears… damn… tagos sa puso at veins.. i pray that your father is at peace up There =)

25 01 2008
jepoy

Best Post mo to pra sa kin so far. Good job!

sarap lagyan ng kantang “Dance with my father” ni Luther Vandross sa background

wish I had some moments too with my Paps

badoodles: @jepoy senti mode ako dyan e

4 06 2010
kyakototentimes

hi. pwede pong magcomment? haha. super. hindi ko talaga napigilan. three years ago pa to, pero ngayon ko lang nabasa kasi kahapon lang ako nagkainteres sa wordpress.

hai. super. i’ve read a lot of your posts. i’ve laughed and smiled a lot. pero this one, it really hit me. shoot. straight to my heart. grabe. i’m still crying and sniffing and sighing while i’m typing this. hai talaga. ayun. thanks for sharing this one. i so love it. i’m sure, your dad’s so proud of you.

IDOL kita. sana maipakita ko din sa parents ko na mahal ko sila before it’s too late. hai.

sabi ni jepoy, bagay dito ang “dance with my father”. meron din ako ditong naisip na song. “SING ME YOUR SONG AGAIN, DADDY” ni Jose Mari Chan. :’)

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